What to Do When You Don’t Feel Like Yourself Anymore
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Have you ever said this phrase, “I just don’t feel like myself anymore”?
Maybe you aren’t quite sure why or what the gradual change had been, but you remember a simpler time when you were more carefree and adventurous. Or, perhaps it’s not that you noticed a shift of any kind, but rather that you’ve always felt like there was more to you that you could never access. Deep down, you know there is a deeper purpose, more joy, or greater talent that haunts you but you don’t know how to tap into it.
What do you do with that? Unfortunately, most people tend to bury it. They stuff that longing for more every day as they trudge through their career unfulfilled, attend all the activities they are “supposed” to attend half-heartedly, and complain about taxes or politics or their own busyness as an excuse for feeling defeated.
In my own life, I buried my dream of being a writer under all kinds of excuses and addictions. I’d say that I used to write because I was unhappy then and needed the emotional outlet that writing provided (implying I was presently happy and no longer needed to write). Then when I felt that soul longing for some way to express myself in a unique way, I’d find ways to drown out the calling with shopping, food, distraction with TV or some good ole fashioned self-reproach.
For twelve years I didn’t feel like myself and I claimed to be searching for her every time I tried something new to fill the ever growing hole in my life, but it was only adding to the clutter in my life. I created a life that allowed me to hide the very thing I was looking for.
After all, that feels like the safest thing to do; create a life that works, rather than one that lasts. We are responsible for so much in our daily lives that we crave practical solutions to ease the present strain of life. Dreams, gifts, and passions that arise from our hearts don’t seem to fit in the practical, streamlined plan for our family, finances, or—ironically—our faith.
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